Posts Tagged ‘disappointment’

You could be…

Monday, May 12th, 2008

…my silver springs… playing in the background….

It’s one of those days when random thoughts try to mar a perfect day….

I like this place – I didn’t expect myself to and now it’s leaving me a li’l disturbed (?). I miss home but I don’t call – If I do, I’d run out of things to say in a few mins…I don’t call friends each day – I miss them too!

There are things I do and things I don’t – not every thing’s right! That’s the hardest part I guess – to accept that the crappy part belongs to me, to know that I could say mean things, to know that I could mess up someone for life… to know that ‘sorry’ has a limited reach….
:) Time for me to stop, lest I say something I shouldn’t!

Note: Ya, am tempted to delete this post but then….I hit Publish!

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Q&A

Monday, March 31st, 2008

Are you angry?
No

Are you hurt?
Yes

Are you sad?
Yes

But then, you never go beyond the first question.

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The year gone by….

Tuesday, December 19th, 2006

It’s that time of the year when I tend to look back and wonder how different this year has been…one year is never the same as the other and this year too, I did things I’ve never done before, been to places I’ve never been before and met people I’ve never before…strangers turned to friends and friends to strangers….love to hate and hate to love…

Some of the prominent changes …

For the first time in my life, I am living away from home and enjoying it. Yes, it makes life a lot more interesting and teaches you to depend on yourself a lot. In a way, I think it makes you less dependant on others, especially if you choose to live on your own…the way I do, all on my own in a single BR….

I think I am getting used to the fact that friends can turn to strangers as time goes by…. It does hurt when it happens with someone you didn’t expect…or someone you were close to…but then, that is life… so, there are one or two – I wish they had the sense to talk it out instead of judging based on someone’s assumptions… if you don’t know what this means, I am not talking about you….

…to be continued….

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Time and rejection….

Thursday, September 14th, 2006

There was this soul on earth living within a cheerful lad. And even as everyone said he was so handsome and cheerful, his soul wasnt happy. No matter how much he tried, he could not lift his soul to a cheerful state. Even when he managed to be happy from within it lasted just for a little while before someone came along and bruised his soul.
Then one day, came a friend who tried to help him out. He refused to speak his heart out saying he didn’t want to depend on anyone. But she was patient and had her way. He got to speak about his worries, his troubles, and every little thing. And so, the days went by….his soul was getting happier and he was happy too.
One day, as usual, his soul was pondering over something…something that made him feel agitated and so he called his friend. But she was too busy this time and told him he should not be expecting her to be able to talk 24 hours a day….and so, the soul came back bruised and battered….struggling to trust again…struggling with that something that was agitating…and so he was…back to square one.
On that fateful day, he made a decision that he would not depend on anyone else…and his soul too decided not too open up and share the thoughts within, with anyone else….
so, the days went by…gloomy and gray for him and his soul. It was indeed quite painful for him to get over his friend and her untimely rejection…well, is there a timely rejection???

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I apologize

Sunday, August 27th, 2006

I apologize for the times I’ve given advice – unasked for
I apologize for the times I’ve misunderstood you – not giving you a chance to explain
I apologize for taking up your time – you could have spent it doing something better
I apologize for the times I have contacted you – when I don’t know what to do.
I apologize – for anything and everything

One more depressing start to a supposedly beautiful day – all because I messed up a friendship.
11AM, Sunday, August 27, 2006

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